If you've been on very many websites you already know that weight-loss surgery is a tool and working your tool is totally up to you. After having weight-loss surgery chances are your doctor will tell you that you have a good 12 to 18 months of time in which your tool is working at it's optimal performance. During this time you will spend alot of time learning how to eat properly, you will learn to eat to live instead of living to eat.
If you are still in the throws of researching surgeries you are probably spending alot of time reading about the procedures and which is best for you. Surprisingly, research doesn't end after you hop off the table to a new life after bariatric surgery. The time that I personally spend on the internet since bariatric surgery has doubled as I re-learn to treat my body in the way it was intended to be treated. I find that I will spend time on www.youtube.com or www.obesityhelp.com learning what others are going through or have gone through before me. There is a big support system on the internet for those of us to be involved in as we share with others who can truly relate to what we go through on a day to day basis.
Another good source for research is going to monthly support meetings that are hosted by the bariatric clinic that did your surgery. While I personally, have not been able to attend a meeting yet I am totally pysched about going. Another form of research and support is to make appointments to see the nutritionist and the therapist at your bariatric center. While none of us wants to think we need someone to get in our heads and bodies to tell us what we need to do, the truth is if we knew what to do to begin with we would not have needed this surgery. This life changing experience is by no means easy nor are you taking the easy way out as so many uninformed people like to say. Surgery is the easy part but it is what comes after surgery that is difficult.
Being almost two months post-op this reality has hit home with me as I struggle with the day to day in and outs of life after bariatric surgery. In the last two months I have learned some disturbing things about myself that I am not proud of. For one, I am an addict - I am totally addicted to food. Every morning I still wake up and think about food, I still go to the refrigerator several times aday in search of something to satisfy my addiction. I still want to eat those things that I cannot and if I do the end results are that I spend way too much time with my head hanging over the toilet puking my guts out. When I am bored I want to eat, when I am sitting here in front of the computer I fidget because I want to have food nearby to satisfy my craving. I get angry when my husband eats something that I want but can no longer have. I even lashed out at him recently for overeating in Subway, making a fool of myself all for the sake of my addiction. While I have no defense and feel horrible about this he did tell me to keep him in line since he was on a diet. So you see bariatric surgery isn't the easy way out it takes work and it is a painful journey for one who always could count on food to take away whatever feeling we wanted to forget.
I could go one and tell you more like what life is like when you have a stricture but I guess I need to leave something for the next post. I hope that you have enjoyed your visit and will bookmark me or rss feed me and come back and visit often. Please feel free to comment and share your stories I would love to hear them. In the meantime take care of yourself and love your body. God Bless.
Kellie
P.S. Please be sure to check out the next post about "The Loser's Club," I really am looking forward to your input and getting this club started so email me today!
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